Why must he know everything that hurts me inside

Why must he hurt me every chance he gets

Why even after all this time can he just start to hurt me out of no where

My first love

Is now the only one that can hurt me.

He knows just what to say

Just what to do to make me feel like the bad guy

I wish that the past could just be past

That life could just go on

But the past exsist inside

No matter how much time drifts by

The question is still WHY

These walls are closing in

all around the world feels smaller

and i think it is

my life feels shorter

my world smaller

i have no one but you

no one to help me out of this

but you save me

you pull me out

just before the point of no return

the lst seconds

i feel my heart pounding with yours

we are one

we stay together

atleast in our world

but in the real world

we stand alone

Butterflies sing

and dance

upon your skin

their warmth touches you deep inside

their love is shown in flight

their beauty is in there wings

but can the beuty be shown

when the love inside us

is gone?

When i stand alone

my life is incomplete

i feel like my heart is gone

and my chest is pounding

i feel somthing screaming inside

its my soul

its losing its way

it showed its path

but its not enough

you have to go with it

you must show it the way

it will get lost without you

you have the key to my soul

When i stand alone

my life is incomplete

i feel like my heart is gone

and my chest is pounding

i feel somthing screaming inside

its my soul

its losing its way

it showed its path

but its not enough

you have to go with it

you must show it the way

it will get lost without you

you have the key to my soul

Just tell me this

if you love me

how can you hurt me like this

how can you feel me

and not stay with me

if i am to love

let it be you

but let you feel first the pain of being alone.

The way you look at me

the way you speak to me

i can just tell

theres something there

i feel it when im around you

i fee the warmth in your voice

the way you talk gives me chills

it scares and excites me all at once

you have made me think

you have made me see

i cant be without you

and im wishing every day

i never have to be

You showed me life outside my shell

you showed me a life i thought i lost

you helped me see in not a monster

you helped me with my problems

when no one else would

He is always right by my side

he comforts me when i want to run and hide

makes me feel perfect

all things go right

not a thing could be wrong

he loves me

i love him

~Perfectness~

You showed me that love can come in many different packages

You showed me there was love inside us all

You showed me the perfect cat

For a year you lived with us

And we showed you the compassion you needed

We found the perfect cat

....More like you found us

Showed us that lifes worth living if your living with love

You showed me what life needs more of

And i will follow what you showed

1 year

And now your gone

No more kisses

No more love from you

But I will love you forever

Why must i part with all feelings

why must all love leave me

my heart keeps breakingand i cant find the one to mend it

i wish he could

but he knows not of me

yet i know of him

my heart is waiting for him

and only him

no other could take his spot in my heart

no one

why do people believe that they can

why must all things end

except feelings

My life is hidden

alot of people say they love me

and i cant help but wonder if they really do

how can they

they dont know me

they know what i let them know

what i show them

not what really is

and i wish they could

everyday as i wake i wish to show them the real me

something they have never seen before

only its been hidden so long

i dont know if its me any more

My shadow has fallen

Fallen over the clear blue sky

you can try to look past

but you cant avoid it

its not just my shadow tonight

everyones shadow is showing

the darkness they hold inside

the part they hide from everyone

the part they wish they couldnt show

but they are afraid to show

i live in this shadow

permenantly

never being redeamed

always thinking of death

never the happiness i used to have

that i wish i still had

Can you see me

Can you see what youve created

What youve done to me

you taught me to love

that im not alone

that i have people

that im not dead

not drowning in my own sorrow

i could actually feel

i feel your warmth

i want your touch

youve made me human

i have desire

i have a want to live

to get out

to be with people

and not live in shadow